Wow. It’s been almost a month since I last posted. It also happens to be about a month away from my big 4-0, but who’s counting?
So what’s been going on? Let’s see. We are still working on my dad’s situation. We try to visit him at the nursing home each week and thankfully his dementia hasn’t progressed too much yet. This is a blessing because his house still hasn’t sold. Not real thrilled with the realtor, but hopefully we’ll get a buyer soon and can close this horrific chapter in our lives.
I’ve been trying to continue my first-ever marathon training and it’s going so-so. Still dealing with a lot of pain. Not so much with the sciatica issue, but more with the IT band/knee issue – the issue I had before all the disc/sciatica nonsense. It finally got to the point that I pushed my sports med doctor to write my “new” old issue into my progress report so that physical therapy would be allowed to help me.
And ever since then, I think we’re finally onto something. The past few appointments have been enlightening. I told the therapist that as my mileage increases, I’m back to having the knee pain that I had before. I said I couldn’t help but think the two issues were related in some way. As he did a bunch of tests on me, he had a few theories.
First, he asked about my training in years past. I said first half-marathon, no issues. Every big race after that, I’ve been in pain. He asked what was different between my first and recent training attempts and I told him IVF. I always wondered if this was the root of my problems. He said that the medications used, particularly progesterone, can weaken ligaments – just as a pregnancy would. It’s quite possible that every time I tried to start training again after a failed attempt, it was with weakened ligaments, causing a whole domino effect of issues.
Then he said there’s several things going on. My left hip flexor is tight and that leg is stronger. My right side is weakened, which I’m sure the flared sciatica isn’t helping. My right knee also points inward, something I was born with. When I told him I would get self-conscious about how my foot points outward and try to point it straight, he said “don’t” and that was my body’s way of putting my knee in correct alignment. Ah-ha.
So as I run, I’ve tight problems on one side and weak problems on the other so the body tries to do all these things to compensate and over time, it’s quite possible the disc problem started, as a result. He said the spine is good about bending forward and back, and side to side, but with a diagonal pivoting motion that my body is forcing it to do, not so much. In time, the disc may just wiggle out and back surgery isn’t the answer. If we don’t correct the problems, he said the disc problem will just go right up the chain. Ah-ha!
The good news is, he thinks I can keep running and training, but we are really trying to work on the issues. He’s added some cushioning to the insole of my right shoe, to keep my foot from rolling inward, when my knee and hip flexor start to fatigue, and some specific stretches and strengthening exercises for me to work on.
Two weeks ago, I reached a new benchmark in mileage = 15.5 miles. I couldn’t believe it. I wish it were pain-free, but we’re working on that. I really hope I can complete this marathon because now that I’ve gotten a lot better at blocking out ttc at this point, this is what I want. This is my new goal and I’ll be pissed if it doesn’t happen. I don’t need more failure.
And lastly, the other thing that’s keeping us busy is that we decided to add a deck and patio on to our house. We kept putting it off because most of our money was going toward toward the bills for the 10 children we never got to meet, but now that we’re doing better, we decided it was time. It was a tough decision at first because we both went through phases where we wanted to move out of this neighborhood and start a new life “just the two of us” but doing that would be financially stupid. The market is showing improvement and we are in a newer development with several lots left to sell. It just makes more sense to wait it out a bit longer and not move hastily. So we are going to enjoy our house, throw lots of parties and cookouts, and do the best we can to move on.
Unfortunately, a certain big-box store has been screwing us over with the delivery of our decking materials and we’ve been patiently waiting to put the boards down on our deck frame for about a month now, because why would anything go smoothly for us, right? Ugh! So then there’s that, too.
Hopefully in a month from now, I’ll be kicking my feet up, relaxing on our deck, realizing 40 isn’t so bad, not needing to ice my knee too much, anticipating my first marathon. Perhaps life will be good.