Well, I guess that settles it.
I had an appointment yesterday with my regular, internal medicine doctor as a followup to see how I’m adjusting to some anti-depressants. Yeah, I went there. Things haven’t been so great lately and in the last months of last year, it was almost like I felt this shift where things were getting worse. And then looking ahead and anticipating that things would most definitely get worse, I decided it was time.
So yesterday was simply for her to see how I was doing and decide if the dose and particular med is working for me. My initial thought was, yes it’s helping but I think upping the dose to twice a day would be better. She agreed to that and said that’s the typical dose anyway.
While I had her attention and time, I decided to ask her stance on hysterectomy for endometriosis purposes and that I’ve been gathering opinions and doing research before agreeing to this life-changing surgery. She looked over my history while I told her that I’ve been in the ER twice in the past six months. She said, “you’re 41?” and I nodded and realized just how ridiculous and desperate I must have looked. She asked if we’ve ever been successful at conceiving and I told her we were not. I guess I sort of put her on the spot.
She ultimately agreed that a hysterectomy was probably best for someone like me, whose endo is severe. I’m sure she wanted to deliver those words about as much as I wanted to hear them, but I figured they were coming. We discussed a little bit about some concerns with adjusting post-op, like bone density, hormones, etc. and the importance of having a thorough list of questions ready for the surgeon.
And here’s the funny thing. I haven’t even discussed this with him yet. He was the first doctor to suggest this and we haven’t even talked to the man. I guess I was hoping for a differing opinion, even if just one. So our consult is still planned for March 10, one month from right now. We’ll hear what the good doctor has to say and I’ll be armed with my list. I’m thinking end of year for surgery. I just started working on myself again, working out, hoping to train for a marathon again, and giving some serious thought to career goals. I really don’t want to stop now and be sidelined for two months.
Time to keep up the strength, in so many ways.