I’m a mess. Still having some left-sided cramping, although it’s eased up a bit since yesterday. No clue if it’s because of the acupuncture or if it’s resolving on it’s own, or it’s progressed into something else.
Enter bladder pain and spasms.
I’ve been starting to get these episodes of bladder pain where it feels like a UTI coming on but ends up not being an infection. I’ve been tested and it’s been negative. It usually happens at the time of my period and I was really hoping it would be resolved after my surgery. I didn’t have it during my last period, so the fact that I’m having it post-ovulation is a new one for me.
This morning was awful.
Between not sleeping well lately and nerves of needing to be up extra early for work, IBS was in high gear and worked in tandem with my bladder. I think I christened every bathroom in the house. Every time hubs wanted to see me off for work and wish me a happy birthday, I was in a different bathroom for the second or third time each. I don’t know what this is, but I’m starting to wonder if it’s interstitial cystitis. No clue on how to be sure but it doesn’t help that my pelvic floor and pretty much everything below the navel is a mess, or the fact that it commonly affects those with endo, or perhaps it’s just a new phase to embrace on my way through perimenopause.
So this is 41, apparently.
I’m trying to be gluten-free, dairy-free, and sugar-free.
I’m taking all my vitamins and supplements daily.
I’m going to acupuncture once a week.
I’m not on some really nasty traditional Chinese medicine herbal tea 3x a day.
I’ve now got less than a 6-month window left to TTC.
I feel like crap.
I do not run much anymore.
I’m exhausted (in so many ways).
Yep, this sounds about right. Not at all what I was expecting at this point in my life, but it is what it is.
Worst part…no cake for me today. Well, at least until the weekend, anyway.