…and cheese, and bread, and fruit. And my list could go on.
I’m four days post-op and it’s been a little bit miserable, I’m not going to lie. I thought it would be a genius idea to start my 30-day gluten-dairy-sugar free diet plan and I have already failed. The first couple days weren’t terrible as I didn’t feel like eating real big anyway. The worst has been breakfast. I’ve tried all sorts of gluten-free cereals and they all tasted like I’d imagine school paste would taste. Almond milk became the highlight of my mornings and by the second day, I cheated and made scrambled eggs, and maybe with one thin slice of baby swiss. I just can’t do this. I am getting horrendous headaches every day and while some might say that’s the “die-off” or that’s your body getting healthy, I call BS. This is my body reacting to not having a balanced diet. Yes, there’s room to improve, but this isn’t living.
And I suppose choosing to do this during a time of serious recovery that my body is experiencing from surgery wasn’t the best plan. So today I fell apart. I cheated. Or should I say cheeted? I had Cheetos. And then I made a smoothie (which are somewhat healthy). I still have a headache but I really think I just need to take better care of myself while healing. When I texted hubby my defeat, he instantly called me back to reassure me that I just need to focus on healing and not worry about this silly restrictive diet. He thinks the root of a lot of my problems will be taken care of with the surgery. He may be right.
Recovering from a surgery is draining on the mind, too. I’ve had some bouts of feeling depressed, especially sitting at home all alone all week. All I do is watch tv, go online, and nap. Today, I finally felt strong enough to go for a walk and since it was a beautiful morning, it was a real help. I saw a handful of joggers and oh how I miss it. I wasn’t feeling that way in the weeks and months leading up to surgery, probably because I always felt sick and tired, but now that I can’t run, it’s on my mind. It will be at least a month before I get the go-ahead to do anything physical, which makes me wish I could do my special diet even more, to make up for the inactivity.
So I don’t know where to go with this. I’d love to order up a pizza, but I’ll refrain. I’ll try to do the best I can with this plan so that I have something somewhat respectable to report with I go back to my integrative med doctor in August. It won’t be perfect, but honestly, I’d rather enjoy my life, however long that is. For the most part, I’m healthy. Yeah we uncovered some things that need attention, but being 100% restrictive just isn’t for me. I will continue with the supplements, though. After two weeks, I started feeling a lot better. Unfortunately, I had to stop it all for surgery, but hopefully in another week or so, things will be better. I will start feeling better and planning things for the future, whatever my body will allow.